Secrets.

Since I was a girl I have been dealing with my weight. Tormented by family, classmates, etcetera. One time in particular was in the eighth grade. I had a mandatory gym class. I was seated next to a boy who I’ve known since Kindergarten, and every single day he would comment on my weight. Whether it be, “Why are you so fat?” or a withheld chuckle at the sight of my calves. I acknowledged the fact that I was bigger but people are so cruel. That is the reason I look back at middle school with a grudge. Since then I have shed some weight and I’m slightly more confident. But there’s always that feeling of never being up to my own standards. So I have planned to use this tumblr not only as a place to vent my most precious memmories and secrets, but also as a way to lose the rest of my weight. I will follow one rule: If god didn’t make it, don’t eat it. Though I’m not religious, I think it makes a good example to not eat all the chemicals and shit that’s put into regular food. I will use this as a food diary of sorts, and post my meals and exercise of the day. Today? I’m kind of ashamed, so I’ll start tomorrow.